An Accident of Divine Intent ..

One year ago today I was rear-ended by a driver not paying attention to the cars in front of him. I had reached down to turn up the radio and when I looked up I could see cars putting our their brakes rather abruptly as not to hit the car in front of them that had suddenly decided to turn into a driveway.  I hit my brake rather quickly, not wanting to be part of a three car collision, just seconds after I hit my brakes I felt the impact. That sickening sound of metal on metal, the rush of adrenalin, and the instant shock and confusion as you try to figure out what exactly just happened. 

And yet, within moments of the impact, while still in the shock of what had happened, I will filled with a sense of God's presence, and in my spirit I felt a quiet message. "You are right where you are supposed to be. This was not a mistake but part of my plan. And its going to be a long road." 

What should have been a 4 to 6 week recovery turned into a 3 to 6 month recovery, and has now stretched into a year of Chiropractic visits, injections, pain meds, PT appointments and to be honest, quite a bit of frustration at the slow nature of my recovery. And yet, in the midst of it all, even, maybe especially in the darkest days of  wondering if I will ever get better, I have seen the hand of Jesus.

He has walked beside me all the way, and ever so gently reminded me that He is in this, and was from the moment the other car struck mine. In my moments of darkness he whipers in my soul "I haven't left you, remember, I told you this would be long, I just didn't tell you how long. Hold on to me, don't give up, don't give in, keep walking forward. And rest in Me. Let Me be enough. Let Me be your peace. Let Me be your strength. You have much to learn and this is the only way."

I'm still learning the lessons He intended from this event, and I'm pretty sure I still don't get it all. And I admit, I grow very weary of this journey, of dealing with neck pain, and muscle spasms and fatigue. Of still having to rely on pain meds a couple times a day, of trying this and that and getting a some results only to stall about the time we think we have made a breakthrough. But I press on. And I know in my heart I am on the right track, walking the right road, doing the right things and learning with every step to lean harder and depend deeply on Him.